I did it for youMonths have passed, two to be exact.
We use to be best friends, almost siblings.
Then you met him and everything changed.
Suddenly, I found 3 years down the drain.
We could no longer talk, there was just empty arguments,
They left us both feeling miserable.
I finally found it in me to face the truth.
You needed him more than you ever needed me.
And so, taking what you hated most I used it against you,
I told you I'd always be around and despite you ever knowing, I will be.
For your benefit though, I told you everything that would make you hate me,
That would make you tear apart this feeble relationship we called a friendship.
And with you gone, I am left to remember you despite how hard I try to forget.
Your memory stands strong, blazing in the back of my mind,
You invade my mind on a daily basis.
I wonder how are you doing?
Are you alright?
Is he treating you well?
Are you happy?
I know it was for the best but I wish...you'd come back,
I wish we could be friends again.
I know that thi
The new Spring
The first day of spring soon approaches,
It is fast on our heels, only a week away.
The sun brightens up the sky and it's rays bring us warmth.
The birds sing outside as they soar high above us,
The streets become crowded as people reacquaint themselves with the world.
Spring, brings life,
It brings new beginnings, new births, new chances.
It brings romance and it brings love.
It brings sorrow to me.
I find myself dreading every waking moment of the approaching season.
There is no hope for me.
My friends are departing, leaving our world behind as they start anew.
Romance brings no end to the pain I feel for I know not of romance,
I only know the sorrow and everlasting angst that accompanies the never-ending loneliness.
And spring, brings happiness to all but me.
The weather only brings reminders of things I'll never have.
I've long since given up hope and I know,
I should just accept my lost and lonely life.
I should bask in the glory of the spring days.
Try to enjoy them for you only
Your ActionsWe became friends, three years ago.
I remember it like it was yesterday.
I remember how much you needed me,
How much I truly needed you.
But in recent time,
it's seems like you threw it all away.
Like it meant nothing to you.
Like it never meant a thing.
And, in the midst of it all,
I'm sorry to say but I can't stay your friend.
I tried time and time again.
You pushed, you shoved.
You got your way.
It wasn't my intention to leave,
Afterall I said I never would.
But there is only so many ignorant comments I can handle,
And, then you continuously degrade me.
And how much you looked down on me for needing you around.
I'm at my wits end and this is my choice.
I loved you like family.
So I'm sorry it's come to this.
It's my own concious decision.
It was not without cause,
Your actions befell my choice.
There comes a time when you need to let go,
There also comes a time to forgive and forget.
Life is too short to remain angry.
And, before you know it life will pass you by.
So, Spread you wings and fly.
Behind Closed Doors
Hidden meanings of my words,
Portrayed on plain white paper.
There is so much meaning to them,
The silent pleas that you should know.
I will put pen to paper and write until I can no longer,
I will write until all my worries are gone,
Until all my sadness is diminished.
Thoughts left unspoken, never to reach the person they're meant for.
My silent confession and only I alone know what they mean.
Only I will know who they are for.
Three years have come and gone,
You're no longer around but you're not forgotten.
I hope you become the best you can be.
You are amazing but gone.
I won't forget you but I won't dwell in the past.
And so, I close this door behind me.
Never again will I open it.
Good bye, my Friend.
Our meeting was inventible,
It was right and it was wrong,
The past meets the present and here I am wondering,
Why I love you so much.
And here I know, you will never be mine.
The pieces of my heart are mine to mend,
Never was it ever your fault but my own stupidity.
I believed in s
As if you never existedIn the back of my mind you're remembered,
In the restyou're forgotten.
There are always times when I wonder,
where you are,
what you're up too,
how happy you are.
How you're doing.
I miss you.
I miss you so much.
I still find myself trying to be strong.
I know you moved on,
I doubt you even cared.
And, it's oh so dark when you're gone.
Why did you have to go?
I constantly wonder,
what did I do wrong?
How did I loose you?
God, I miss you.
You meant so much to me.
I lost you,
you were family.
I'm trying to move on,
trying to be happy.
I'm trying to set things right.
Everything is just such a mess.
I wish you were here with me.
And, I write,
hoping to forget you,
hoping to ease the pain,
hoping to ease how much I need you.
I know it's pointless.
I know it's hopeless.
I try to remember you,
I fear I am forgetting you.
I am forgetting our conversations,
I am forgetting how much we spoke.
I am forgetting what you looked like,
I am forgetting who you where.
I don't want too.